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II
a glass of
create
Was there something in the
water of Venice
that pawned so many of you juiced writers?
So many Bukowski-related little semen fishies?
Such life outside the beaker? Was it the sun?
The west coast? The coast itself—
ie. you can't go any further unless it's Japan
so why not settle and be a poet?
Sing (Shanna) or get it out whatever it takes
even if it means:
living fully, splayed
I am one generation after you.
Younger.
I hear all the hospital, dialysis stuff and rejoice in it:
you poets are aging, me too.
I am undergoing tests this week for shot liver—
cancer, everything: it's marvellous.
How do we mix our dying physiologies with Art?
With Venice?
Simple.
We defy physiology.
DEFY PHYSIOLOGY.
Years ago, drunk and home from the bars
I scrawled on my wall, felt pen, the phrase:
DEFY PHYSIOLOGY.
It took 2 weeks to clean it off my wall.
What I meant was that pain contains meaning
more valuable than youth, the past—
What we fuckin' were before.
Pain is a teacher which spawns revolution.
I love the way my perceptions change
in the face of pain (or, Karina, encroaching blindness).
Fuck this raping of our senses!
We must not yearn to go back to a former robustness
but instead question the basic senses
we depend upon for so-called awareness.
There are 1000's more kinds of awareness
than we even got a concept of.
Kerouac and Cassady knew this.
They played this knowledge.
They slip-slided, wet with gift, thru the daily
routines and necessities that piss us off.
Just becuz we take longer to wipe our ass
only means shit and the end and the beginning
are exactly the same thing.
None of us want to die. Or
maybe some of us do.
But when outlaw poets die, or dilapidate,
they are not alone.
Photo: William H Hooper III
I don't feel alone when I look
at that ice
sculpture and see the ribcage of the angel
and respect the bowed head of the firefighter.
I don't feel alone when I read
the contributors' biographies in Sketchbook
and feel special just to know you guys.
The point is we are not alone
and as Shanna puts it
"the internet is the biggest invention
since the wheel".
I have no respect for the
wheel.
But I do respect those who seek to bridge worlds:
combine planes, physics—
Stephen Hawking and the irrelevance of the wheelchair.
Shanna, Karina, John, Fred—you are all gems
with whom, via the stars, I have been gifted to contact.
I sometimes think I am alien spawn.
Now I just know I am Mark Twain's lost lover,
once removed and unafraid of the wet-spot.
sam flavor
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